Moments

Those very strange moments I wish I could understand…

Moments when my mind just seems to wonder,

Moments where all I want to be is alone…

Moments where I am mad at what I do not know,

Moments I want to run and simply hide from me,

Moments I think I understand, but I am simply lost in the buzz of the activities,

Moments where I just want to cry and know what’s up with me

Moments I vent at God and start the silly “why” questions.

Then, I wonder why I am asking why

Moments I cling to hold unto something dear.

Moments I wish, think, ponder and try to understand,

Moments only God can fill me,

Hmmmm, unexplainable moments.

I even often wonder if I only feel those moments,

Moments I feel no one can really understand me,

And thus I feel no need to explain what I do not understand.

Moments I’ll seek refuge in the only Being I feel and know understands all things.

Though I vent, and shout and scream,

I know He still understands

Moments where I am…

Lost in me, and found only in God.

Those moments, only God...

The moments have gone by, and then I wonder why I even bothered, God had me covered then and He still does...